Forever unsolved.

Halloween social was fun, but I had to take care Joseph.. “Do you know…..do you know..do you know..I love you a lot.” Hahaha. <3 Won BP over the Torres Brothers with @jooooane!

Spent the night with the boyfriend…almost 5 days straight. Feels nice, almost like we’re living together on our own. (:

Watched Paranormal 3… I got scared even though I probably only watched about 10 minutes of the movie on and off. Because SOMEONE had me watching ghost/haunted stories all day before we went! >:( I can only take so much.

After that, to ease my mind, we went to Round 1 and Jazz Cat with John and his girl. Rowland Heights two days in a row! Lol. Jazz cat is toooo goood. My first ever hot pot restaurant. :D

Ended the night well, I must say. (:

Morning. (:

I hope today’s good a day. Happy hump day! 

So I’ve been told that I’ve been doubted that I’m gonna be happy with my major.

Right now, the prereqs for this major are not to my liking and I’m not as dedicated as I’d like to be. But, I mean.. once I get to the real Physical Therapy stuff, it should be okay right? I don’t have another major in mind. Besides the fact that Porscha would always tell me she’s gonna become a dance teacher, build a school, and I’ll be a dance teacher there as well..but, well….who knows where that goes.

Recently, I’ve realized a lot more that dancing and performing is what I LOVE to do. The feeling of being up on stage in front of hundreds of people doing what I love most is amazing. But, I can’t do that. It’s against my dad’s wishes of being successful. And he’s right, performing for a real career is harder than anything else. You only have your prime years during your 20’s and that’s it. You’re done, nothing else to fall back on. And that, is what sucks. But at least this year, I’ve decided to join University Dance Company. I’ll be able to do what I love, putting on a show and still keep doing what I need to do.

Later on, if it’s possible to minor in dance, that’s what I’m gonna do. I don’t know if I can take on double majors, my grades aren’t up to par just yet.

Wish me luck. 

Spending all day practicing with UDC.. 
Better it be dance practice than a lame day.

Eh..What else happens on a sunday..?

Least I have the rest of the night. 

Friendship Games 2011 Lubos PASO Roll Call! (:

That part alone made me suuuuuper excited.

And your words. I hold you by those very strongly. 

I don’t always know what’s going on, but a lot has happened. And I’m sorry I don’t always follow my own, but you’re better at it than I am. I expect you to do so. Just please, don’t give me a thousand more reasons to create problems. Having them all stuck in my head is a nightmare.

-jchellee:

I made a tumblr for a reason- its my little get away, and a place for me to express my full thoughts and feelings without having to worry about anyone else. Now I feel like I can’t even do that anymore cause I have people on it, that straight up criticizes my words and pictures. I feel like I can’t freely reblog pictures I want to reblog, and I’m constantly restricted about what to say.. WTF? MY tumblr, MY thoughts, MY feelings, MY personality, right? 

WRONG. 

I hate it when someone is in a really bad state and you’re there for them..but you just don’t know what the hell to do or say to make them feel better.. :|